Post by J Tank on Nov 2, 2005 15:33:56 GMT
Falling from cloud 9 hurts a lot
01/11/05
Greetings.
You may have noticed I haven't updated in quite a while, Well since I left my job I didn't think anyone would read this shit, but it turns out I was wrong and there are readers out there.
So what's been going on?
Well I went out with L again, and a lovely night we had again, but since then things have changed. I haven't heard from her now since Sunday. The last thing she wrote ended with: I thought about you lots today X. Well I haven't texted her since then as everyone has said to me that I need to not reply and just be strong and see what happens. Well it seems she's obviously not that interested as I've not heard from her. I guess she is just a typical woman. All I can work out is that she just wanted me for sex behind her boyfriends back. I didn't give it to her as I was trying to be noble.
I really don't get women, they always complain about guys treating them like shit or just wanting to fuck them and not caring about who they really are, but in truth it seems that is exactly what they like. It's true, nice guys DO finish last. The moment a guy comes along who they are physically attracted to and instead of treating them badly he wants to be as good and kind to them as can be, he's not worth being with cause he doesn't act like they are dog shit on the bottom of his shoe. Well after much pain, which is still in me, I decided that it is her that is losing out, and no matter how beautiful I think she is, and how nice of a person I thought she was or what kind of a connection I felt we had, it was all lies. For her it must have all just been lies in an attempt to make me help her to cheat on her bloke with me. I would have been good to her. Now I wish I had just fucked her like a whore, and this, just one of many women to shit down my throat, has left me with a single thought in my mind, there are no decent women. From now on I should not consider their feelings or try to do things to make them feel good. I should be selfish and heartless. As a caring person who craves only the companionship of a good woman in life, I leave myself open to be hurt constantly by evil bitches who think this is fun. Now things must change for there are no good women. What I want does not exsist. It is time to become exactly what they moan about, but what they like, someone who hurts them. Sex will no longer be about making them feel good as well, it must be totally selfish. If it takes 3 minutes to come, so be it, wipe up and go to sleep. They deserve no pleasure from me.
It doesn't matter. Most women have no interest in me anyway. It will be over a year again before another notices me. And by that time no doubt I'll be hopeful again and get shit on again. In 10 years I'll be 40, I'll probably still be alone. So I must keep this hatred in mind. Hurt others before they hurt you. This could be a better approach for someone like me who seems destined to never be happy.
Thank you L for adding more pain to my oh so wonderful exsistance.
So I still haven't had any luck on the job front. I've been put forward for a few, but hey, I don't have a degree so obviously I don't know anything. If you don't have a bit of paper to say you know stuff then you probably don't know anything. Ever notice how job adverts never say that you need a degree in anything specific? Just a degree. So I'm considerring doing a degree in Star Wars. That way I'll pass easily, I can go for jobs that need you to have a degree and in a way it will be a "Fuck you!" to all those employers. Well anyway, I haven't heard from any of the jobs I've been put forward for and I've been put forward for one today that I don't think I could do but fuck it, I need some money before Xmas. L was my main push to get a job, now that it seems that's over, I don't really care that much.
Ok so on to Monday nights.... HELL'S KITCHEN USA!!!
Oooooooh did we have a good one or what!
So from the begining:
Last week Elsie was dismissed. Afterward the 3 survivers, Micheal! (yay), Ralph and Jessica, made their way back to the dorm. When they arrived back, at the centre of the table was champagne. They drank and sat and chatted happily. Jessica got pissed and ended up on her arse!
So at around 2am Ralph and Jess went to bed. Michael sat up. At 4am Michael was still awake when suddenly the phone rang!!!
It was Chef Ramsey.
Gordon ordered Michael to wake everyone and come to the kitchen dressed in their chef gear. So Michael got ready then went to wake them up, but the others thought he was on the wind up and didn't believe him!!! So eventually Ramsey sent his head chef in to get them and Ralph and Jess jumped out of bed in shock!
They all rolled into the kitchen where Ramsey explained that the restaurant would be full in the evening but there would be no bread delivery. "If you have your own restaurant and these things happen, you don't sleep, you get up and make the bread yourself" he told them. And so they were left to make bread. Ramsey and his chef's left and the 3 contestants were left alone.
Jessica just went back to sleep and basically Ralph and Michael did all the bread by themselves. They finished at 07:30hrs and went back to bed. 2 hours later they were woken up and told to meet in the kitchen.
It was time for the morning challenge. This time Gordon showed them how to make a soufflet (sp?)
Then before each contestant was a tray of different ingredients, they had to make their imagination to make the best soufflet. Well long story short, Jess came last. Michael was second and Ralph won. So for the first time Ralph won the challenge, what would his prize be? A trip by helecopter to some awesome place? Serving in some top restaurant? Wine tasting?
Nope.
Ralph got the choice of what he would be serving at dinner. Beef, chicken or tuna.
Well there was disappointment on his face. so Ralph chose the beef. Steak minion had been one of the best selling dishes there and the way they were going to be judged on dinner was by the customers favourite. Who sold the most, who's food was enjoyed the most and how well they work in the kitchen. Three criterior.
Michael got second choice. As I sat watching I thought to myself, 'Pick the chicken Mikey! Pick the chicken!'
Michael didn't listen to me though and he chose the tuna!!!! NOOOO!!! WHY?? I thought.
So Jessica got the chicken, but she wasn't happy about that.
They were told to make something individual, a dish that was unique to them.
Ralph went for the Steak Minion
Michael some kind of peppered tuna type thing
And I can't really remember what Jess's chicken was but it looked good.
Gordon told them that there were 3 VIP tables and so things HAD to go well. What he didn't mention was each of their families were at these tables.
In the kitchen that evening everything was going smoothly, with only 3 of them there. At one point Jess started to struggle on the deserts and Gordon started to get mad at her, but through team work, the got it all sorted.
Closing time, and they had completed all their servings and Chef Ramsey was very happy! BUT one person had to go.
It was a very painless dismissal, he brought them in and told them how proud he was. All the dishes were identical, everything was done perfectly. Then he brought their families in. They all greeted each other and then Gordon explained how the dismissal would work. Each family had eaten all of the dishes each, now they had to say what they liked best without knowing who had made it.
Ralphs family first, his parents and his fiance'.
ALL of Ralphs family liked Michaels tuna best.
Now Michael's family...
Ralph's girlfriend liked Ralph's steak best! Then Michaels parents...
They liked the tuna. 5 for Michael, 1 for Ralph so far.
Then Jess.
Her girlfriend (well it was obvious eh?) and her parents.
One chose her chicken!
The other two chose the steak.
5 for Michael - the WINNER! HURAAAH!
3 for Ralph
and 1 for Jess.
Ramsey called her on and said, "You know you weren't as good in the kitchen as these two, but I'm very proud of you" Blah blah. It was all hugs everywhere.
So now on to the last round next week. C'mon Michael you can do it!!!
And that my friends is my long awaited update. I am disheartened about my love life or lack of it. I thought I'd met the right girl for me and she ripped my heart out and shat in the hole, but life goes on, I know where I stand in the world of womens evil minds and really I should just forget about them.
Anyway, I'll update again soon but feel free to DISCUSS this topic, and you never know, you might be lucky enought to get a reply!!!
CyberSlave666
01/11/05
Greetings.
You may have noticed I haven't updated in quite a while, Well since I left my job I didn't think anyone would read this shit, but it turns out I was wrong and there are readers out there.
So what's been going on?
Well I went out with L again, and a lovely night we had again, but since then things have changed. I haven't heard from her now since Sunday. The last thing she wrote ended with: I thought about you lots today X. Well I haven't texted her since then as everyone has said to me that I need to not reply and just be strong and see what happens. Well it seems she's obviously not that interested as I've not heard from her. I guess she is just a typical woman. All I can work out is that she just wanted me for sex behind her boyfriends back. I didn't give it to her as I was trying to be noble.
I really don't get women, they always complain about guys treating them like shit or just wanting to fuck them and not caring about who they really are, but in truth it seems that is exactly what they like. It's true, nice guys DO finish last. The moment a guy comes along who they are physically attracted to and instead of treating them badly he wants to be as good and kind to them as can be, he's not worth being with cause he doesn't act like they are dog shit on the bottom of his shoe. Well after much pain, which is still in me, I decided that it is her that is losing out, and no matter how beautiful I think she is, and how nice of a person I thought she was or what kind of a connection I felt we had, it was all lies. For her it must have all just been lies in an attempt to make me help her to cheat on her bloke with me. I would have been good to her. Now I wish I had just fucked her like a whore, and this, just one of many women to shit down my throat, has left me with a single thought in my mind, there are no decent women. From now on I should not consider their feelings or try to do things to make them feel good. I should be selfish and heartless. As a caring person who craves only the companionship of a good woman in life, I leave myself open to be hurt constantly by evil bitches who think this is fun. Now things must change for there are no good women. What I want does not exsist. It is time to become exactly what they moan about, but what they like, someone who hurts them. Sex will no longer be about making them feel good as well, it must be totally selfish. If it takes 3 minutes to come, so be it, wipe up and go to sleep. They deserve no pleasure from me.
It doesn't matter. Most women have no interest in me anyway. It will be over a year again before another notices me. And by that time no doubt I'll be hopeful again and get shit on again. In 10 years I'll be 40, I'll probably still be alone. So I must keep this hatred in mind. Hurt others before they hurt you. This could be a better approach for someone like me who seems destined to never be happy.
Thank you L for adding more pain to my oh so wonderful exsistance.
So I still haven't had any luck on the job front. I've been put forward for a few, but hey, I don't have a degree so obviously I don't know anything. If you don't have a bit of paper to say you know stuff then you probably don't know anything. Ever notice how job adverts never say that you need a degree in anything specific? Just a degree. So I'm considerring doing a degree in Star Wars. That way I'll pass easily, I can go for jobs that need you to have a degree and in a way it will be a "Fuck you!" to all those employers. Well anyway, I haven't heard from any of the jobs I've been put forward for and I've been put forward for one today that I don't think I could do but fuck it, I need some money before Xmas. L was my main push to get a job, now that it seems that's over, I don't really care that much.
Ok so on to Monday nights.... HELL'S KITCHEN USA!!!
Oooooooh did we have a good one or what!
So from the begining:
Last week Elsie was dismissed. Afterward the 3 survivers, Micheal! (yay), Ralph and Jessica, made their way back to the dorm. When they arrived back, at the centre of the table was champagne. They drank and sat and chatted happily. Jessica got pissed and ended up on her arse!
So at around 2am Ralph and Jess went to bed. Michael sat up. At 4am Michael was still awake when suddenly the phone rang!!!
It was Chef Ramsey.
Gordon ordered Michael to wake everyone and come to the kitchen dressed in their chef gear. So Michael got ready then went to wake them up, but the others thought he was on the wind up and didn't believe him!!! So eventually Ramsey sent his head chef in to get them and Ralph and Jess jumped out of bed in shock!
They all rolled into the kitchen where Ramsey explained that the restaurant would be full in the evening but there would be no bread delivery. "If you have your own restaurant and these things happen, you don't sleep, you get up and make the bread yourself" he told them. And so they were left to make bread. Ramsey and his chef's left and the 3 contestants were left alone.
Jessica just went back to sleep and basically Ralph and Michael did all the bread by themselves. They finished at 07:30hrs and went back to bed. 2 hours later they were woken up and told to meet in the kitchen.
It was time for the morning challenge. This time Gordon showed them how to make a soufflet (sp?)
Then before each contestant was a tray of different ingredients, they had to make their imagination to make the best soufflet. Well long story short, Jess came last. Michael was second and Ralph won. So for the first time Ralph won the challenge, what would his prize be? A trip by helecopter to some awesome place? Serving in some top restaurant? Wine tasting?
Nope.
Ralph got the choice of what he would be serving at dinner. Beef, chicken or tuna.
Well there was disappointment on his face. so Ralph chose the beef. Steak minion had been one of the best selling dishes there and the way they were going to be judged on dinner was by the customers favourite. Who sold the most, who's food was enjoyed the most and how well they work in the kitchen. Three criterior.
Michael got second choice. As I sat watching I thought to myself, 'Pick the chicken Mikey! Pick the chicken!'
Michael didn't listen to me though and he chose the tuna!!!! NOOOO!!! WHY?? I thought.
So Jessica got the chicken, but she wasn't happy about that.
They were told to make something individual, a dish that was unique to them.
Ralph went for the Steak Minion
Michael some kind of peppered tuna type thing
And I can't really remember what Jess's chicken was but it looked good.
Gordon told them that there were 3 VIP tables and so things HAD to go well. What he didn't mention was each of their families were at these tables.
In the kitchen that evening everything was going smoothly, with only 3 of them there. At one point Jess started to struggle on the deserts and Gordon started to get mad at her, but through team work, the got it all sorted.
Closing time, and they had completed all their servings and Chef Ramsey was very happy! BUT one person had to go.
It was a very painless dismissal, he brought them in and told them how proud he was. All the dishes were identical, everything was done perfectly. Then he brought their families in. They all greeted each other and then Gordon explained how the dismissal would work. Each family had eaten all of the dishes each, now they had to say what they liked best without knowing who had made it.
Ralphs family first, his parents and his fiance'.
ALL of Ralphs family liked Michaels tuna best.
Now Michael's family...
Ralph's girlfriend liked Ralph's steak best! Then Michaels parents...
They liked the tuna. 5 for Michael, 1 for Ralph so far.
Then Jess.
Her girlfriend (well it was obvious eh?) and her parents.
One chose her chicken!
The other two chose the steak.
5 for Michael - the WINNER! HURAAAH!
3 for Ralph
and 1 for Jess.
Ramsey called her on and said, "You know you weren't as good in the kitchen as these two, but I'm very proud of you" Blah blah. It was all hugs everywhere.
So now on to the last round next week. C'mon Michael you can do it!!!
And that my friends is my long awaited update. I am disheartened about my love life or lack of it. I thought I'd met the right girl for me and she ripped my heart out and shat in the hole, but life goes on, I know where I stand in the world of womens evil minds and really I should just forget about them.
Anyway, I'll update again soon but feel free to DISCUSS this topic, and you never know, you might be lucky enought to get a reply!!!
CyberSlave666